My Dear IA mate, just want to tell you this:
It is not for certain that she will give you good grades if you slave your ass out for her.
It is not for certain either that she will give you bad grades if you work at a reasonable pace.
The only thing that you can be certain is that: reporting at 8.30am and signing off at 6pm makes you happy. So be it!
Well, for those who think being a lab technician is a piece of cake, let me enlighten your small uneducated mind hahahaha! Just take for example, the simplest, staple food, for all (bio)researchers: micro-pipetting (ranges from 1 micro litter to 1000 micro litter). The considerations for accurate pipetting are:
1. Should you stop at the first stop or the second stop for elution
2. Should you wipe the filter tips
3. Should you pipet two times with smaller volumes or should you pipet one time with larger volume.
4. Filtered tips?
5. Mixing by pipeting up and down?
6. How deep should you dip?
7. Pre-wet the tip?
Those are only a few. Hahahaha. I think with all these sophistication, I will obtain Enlightenment from pipetting (if Zen masters can gain satori from cutting bamboos, perhaps I can too…)
IA dear IA… "I shall be saying this with a sigh…" "Two roads diverged on a yellow road, and I, I choose the path less travelled." I gave my ALL for this IA, Stayed back until 11pm in the Lab: Check. Skipping Palm Sunday: Check. Coming on 3 consecutive weekends: Check. Not complaining for 2 months salary backlog: Check. Missing aikido training, cell group, countless dinners and late lunches: Check.
And now I am in doubt whether the cause I am serving is worth it. And especially, the master I am serving, is worth it.
If I am a soldier, I wouldn’t mind fighting a good fight, provided a good reason for the battle, and a good leader.
But now, I shall be quoting from the movie Troy, by Achilees: "Do not waste your life for a stupid leader."
I thought a good leader, should fight for the welfare of the subordinates. Well, for GOoDness sake, please just fake it and pretend that you care, for the sake of the team.
Well, perhaps it’s just welcome to the real world. working life… welcome welcome.
Side note, last week my sensei asked me to go for another promotion to 3rd kyu in aikido. He said, I chalked up enough training hours. My last promotion was only last month. Can get blackbelt before I leave NTU? Hahaha shouldn’t be thinking about it, since perhaps when I finally join another aikido school, they’ll ask me to start from 6th kyu all the way back.
A quote from After Sex, 2007, a good movie:
"Love is a guessing game, and that’s the beauty of it.
There is no guarantee about it. It’s like diving into a pool of water not knowing if it is shallow or deep.
If it is shallow, sure you’ll end up hurt and paralysed neck down;
but if it is deep…
It’s like taking a leap of faith… And that’s what life is all about…"
And today is such a coincidence that I met my friend on my way back from IA, my friend and the father. Funny coz we started talking about martial arts, and we just clicked. Just such a coincidence. Just 1 minute later or earlier, I might have taken another train, just 1 door away, I wouldn’t have seen them. Hahaha.
Now… I’m itchy for some aikido… wanna do some good yoga or good reiki… wanna some good sleep… wanna have a good talk with some people too… wanna be happy… wanna talk to one particular person… not urgent / important, perhaps just wanna clear some stuff, but perhaps there is nothing to be cleared.
Ooops now is almost 2 am, and it’s gonna rain soon! So gonna have a nice sleep. Good nitez yooo you fellow night animals!
Namaste.
(sigh… retyping the post. This supposed to be the first entry).
Finally! I am writting a blog. Lagi pengen aja. As for the name, it just came to my mind. I think it is the single most common commodity that people look for. Continuously. And I am one of them. Especially right now, perhaps rather… desperately. I promise that once I manage to get hold of it, I shall close this blog. In the mean time, accompany me in this journey together, as I share my ramblings, my complaints, my dreams, my crazy ideas. I do hope as we look back, we call the road we have travelled: Emmaus.
I’d like to see for how long i’ll be able to maintain this blog…
Some backgoround information: I am doing internship in a hospital. Now is past midnight and I can tell you that I just got back. I finished my work at 10.30pm, and it is not uncommon for me to be this late. I am anything but… tired. Perhaps physically, perhaps mentally, perhaps both. (Like sick and tired but also tired and sick).
So, welcome to my blog. I shall be sharing my thoughts, reflections on my life, my work, religion, martial arts, aikido, self defence, crazy innovatibe ideas, movie reviews, book reviews, dreams, plans, past, philosophy, new age, yoga, meditation, zen, anything…
It is interesting that my workplace is sandwhiched between two churches well known / named after famous miracles.
The Novena Church (a.k.a St Alphonsus Church) which is famous for its novena prayer to Our Mother of Pepertual Help. (Ever wonder why the Novena MRT is named as such, not ‘Thompson’ MRT?)
The Our Lady of Lourdes, which is named after the apparation of ‘The Immaculate Conception’, around a hundred years ago. An icon of the Catholic faith.
It is interesting… coz in my life right now, I am looking for miracles, but see none…
If miracles mean getting what we want…
…perhaps I’ll be making stupid decisions in my life… perhaps…
