(Going) Home
Home - Michael Buble
Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
‘Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home
Today was the last day of my 5 months internship. The internship was exactly heavenly, i’ve had my shares of disappointment, boredom, anger. But well, looking back now, I now that I’ve been very blessed to be there.
After tasting research for 5 months, perhpas now I can say that I do not like research. It does not excite me. I’m not sure because I was just running my supervisor’s projects (thus lab technician is a more appropriate term) or I really do not like research. Perhaps if it is really my research, I will be much more motivated and alive.
Anyway, it has been good. And now I realise that I am a highly valuable worker 
FYP - Final Year Project. After looking at the list and could not find interest in any of them, my professor asked me to design my own experiments (in his own words: "Be your own boss!") So I sort of did. The two proposals are: creating a lower arm armour and investigating structural and extracellular matrix in bones after trauma during hard body trainning. I’m not sure if I’m acting too smart for myself… Anyway there’ll be only 1 FYP in our life, so might as well do whatever that interest you the most. And as some guy said, "…if you can see it in your mind and hold it in your heart, you will see it with your eyes, hold it with your hands. - The universe conspires to help you."
Back to the main topic of this post: HOME!
It will be 2 months, I’m not sure what I will do at home, and that is the exciting part of it! Like the last holiday (3 months), I ended up training aikido, initiated in reiki, starting a regime of traditional medicine and finished Harry Potter series 1 -6 in 2 weeks. Hahaha!
Surely training in martial arts / self defense is one. Another is just rest. I need rest. Not so much of physical. It’s good to be away, to forget all the mess i’ve let myself in. To be take a step back and to again see the bigger picture, the whole course.
And I miss my parents. It is funny that only when I am away that I appreciate them. I know that perhaps this is my last long holiday. After this, I’ll be busy with FYP, then finding jobs. I just want to spend some time with them. Sort of to report back and say, "Hi, mum, dad, here your son. I’ve done well, I”ve done a lot, I’ve changed a lot, do you still recognise me? Well, this is a new me…"
As I said to my supervisor, every time we stretch ourselves, ever time we push ourselves beyond our limits, We mature, we grow, and we change. It is important to have ‘checkpoints / restore points’ To let those whom you love and love you to know what you’ve gone through and how you’ve changed, to understand you. When the changes come too fast, this keeps you sane.
So yeah, I’ve got a lot to share, a lot to tell, a lot to consult.
I do not know how I will turn out after the holiday… We’ll see
This 6 months have been a roller coaster. This 1 year has been a hell of a ride. As if i am writing a novel of my life and the chapters open and close so rapidly. Some are clean cut, some are left hanging, and some are up to the intepretation of the reader. And many depend on the publisher (God).
So here I am. Another chapter closed. Another one, clean slate, waiting to be written.
Many times I do feel bored. And many times I would remind myself that I have been innitated into so many journeys. Any innitation, be it baptism, energy attunement, knighting, enlightenment, marriage, appointment, etc, EVEN BIRTH, they come with one similarity: a promise. A promise to be a better person, a promise to be grateful and thankful that now you are on the path of a journey that will lead you to a fuller life, a promise that as you walk, you will leave behind your old self and embrace this new one.
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Anyway, tomorrow I’ll be having another ’secret’ aikido training. I love it, coz we are able to experiment and practice in a much more relaxed situation. Some of my friends who have no background in martial arts will also join us, which is excellent, because then we’ll be able to see what ‘normal’ people would do, whether the techniques work, or martial artists are just to engrossed with themselves and their idealisms. Tomorrow will be fun!
My friends, than you for yet another year. Take care, I will see you in 2 months time.
