I Do Not Know Anything
There was a monk who retreated into the mountains for meditation. After years of contemplation, he finally realised something: that he really does not know anything. So he went back to his village and from that day onwards, whenever he was asked, his reply would always be, "I do not know."
So, the monk had the well-known habit of going to the temple in the morning. One day, he met with the local policeman, who for the sake of teasing the monk asked him where the monk was going. As usual, the monk replied, "I do not know." The policeman was angry at the monk, feeling that he was played upon, and forcefully took the monk bak with him to the station.
Along the way, the policeman told the monk, "Well, you could have said that you were going to the temple, things would have been easier for you." The monk replied, "Look at where I am now. Am I not right to tell you that I did not know where I was going?"
Good story… Now answer these questions: what are you going to do tomorrow when you wake up? Are you sure? Are you even sure that you will wake up? Will you even see tomorrow? What will happen to you 1 hour later? 15 minutes later? 1 second later? We do have plans, yeah, but many times they do not turn out as what we have predicted.
This is what I have learned for the past week. I really do not know. I made plans, I worked hard to make sure they work, but there is always something that happened that is just beyond my prediction, beyond my - imagination even. That shocked me and forced me to change my plan on the spot.
For example, on Wednesday morning, I finished making the ppt slides for Mass. I saved it. But during Mass itself, apparently the file contains the unfinished version of the ppt. Strange. my computer did hang along the way, and apparently the file stop saving since then. i only realised this 5 minutes before Mass. Shocking… panicky… Luckily things turn out smoothly.
Another one: I cannot access my friendster from room. So yup, I’m in the library, trying to read my FYP paper (ELF-WHY-PEE / Final Year Project / Finding Your Partner) typing my blog. Hehehe, both are still "journals" right.
Another one: a friend. Thought could be trusted fully. Thought unconditional friendship. But then, misunderstanding, miscommunication, and apparently things that are done are with strings attached. Luckily things are resolved now. Though things will never be the same again. Forgiven… forgotten? How to forget something?
People change… we’ll never know. Once I judged a junior as smart-aleck. In the end, that person is the one that helped me. I was thinking in my heart: "Forgive me, I was wrong to judge you 2 years ago."
So yeah, i told myself: "Be patient with everything, be ready for anything. Do not expect. You’ll never know."
Same with my FYP…
So… sometimes, when good things happen to you, be thankful for that moment, coz you’ll never know when it will be taken from you. When bad things happen to you, be thankful too, coz it will make you stronger, also be patient coz one day, it may be a blessing in disguise… Again, we’ll never know…
Same with people… accept the person at the moment, accept, don’t give verdict, don’t expect to change. You’ll never know what will happen…
Pace.
